Desires–What she wanted

Once upon a time,

There lived a girl, who crave to do all those things everyone else does. she wanted a group of friends with whom she could hang out, go no long drives, with whom she could stay in a hostel, with whom she could bunk college.

She wanted to stay away from home in a hostel where she could also get excited to go home and talk about all the things that she would do once she goes home.

She wanted a group of friends with whom she could share everything. A best friend at least  if not a bunch of friends , with whom she could do all weird stuff.

She did make friends but what was the use? she never spent time with them cause she was jealous.

People disliked her and she never knew why. From school life to college- nothing had changed.

She had friends on social media…. but even they were of no use.

Habituated to be lonely , she felt good when people spoke to her , asked about her , n out of this happiness she spoke out her heart tried her best to be cheerful .

She found happiness in the smallest of the things. Cause nothing big had ever happened.

She never had friends and that was the reason she got lovers . She found happiness in a person who loved her. yes her boyfriend.

Those instagram and whatsapp stories irritated her cause she could never have all that .

Her friend asked her on text one day. How many people are there in your group. who is your best friend.

She said “neither do i have a group nor do i have a best friend. i enjoy with people at the heat of the moment and then i leave.”

He said ” what ? its been over  a month and you say u don’t have friends with whom you could spend time. Your always on the phone how can you  make friends?”

She did not want to argue so she left. but only she knew what people say when she used to try to talk. And she knew that if they wanted her to be friends they would at least talk to her. “TRY” to talk to her.

Her boyfriend asked her to go and sit with people but she refused and well he never forced her as he himself knew he reason.

The only thought she had in her mind is “Its just the beginning of the first year, I’ll surely have friends by the time I am in my fifth year.”