Well we all have crushes in our school, college, work etc. and at times we confess to them and may a times we don’t . Shy – yes we feel shy to express our feelings towards people. but what we fail to understand is that expressing our feelings is necessary , no matter what the reaction is. Most of the time what we fear is the negative reactions. what if he/she gets angry? what if he/she breaks friendship?etcetc. And well that is what even i did.
I got my first crush in 4th grade. His name is Y . I really liked him a lot, back then i found him very sweet ( even after him i have had crushes but he was always constant). We were friends , but somehow after 7th grade i stopped talking to him, i don’t know why i did that. We used to see each other but i never spoke to him. And then 10th grade farewell, for the last time we were seeing out friends. But, unfortunately i did not see him. I kept looking for him but he was no where to be found. There it all ended, i thought i’ll never be seeing him again.
A few months ago i searched him on instagram and i found him i did not even make an attempt to talk to him. Shy as always.
But then i felt why am i feeling so shy? I stopped talking to him, so i should be the one to start talking again.I gathered all my courage and texted him and within a few minutes he replied , we exchanged numbers and he spoke so freely.
I told him about everything that had taken place after 10th grade was over. My 11th grade in hostel and the disaster in 12th grade. That is when i thought “we have moved on in our lives and i don’t think it will make any difference if i confess” after thinking hard i asked him if he knew who was first crush.
He admitted that he did not know. I said to him that i am sending you his picture, see it.
I sent him his own profile picture, he said to me send me the picture of that guy!!!!
i said did and then i wrote ” after 8 years i gathered the courage to tell you that you were my crush”.
He was shocked and then he said “I am glad that i could be your crush”
trust me that was the most adorable reaction that i could ever get from the guy who i used to admire from a distance .We are still very good friends and the way we talk i guess this friendship is going to last long.
At times i wonder if i would have told this to him in 10th grade may be things would have been different . I still do feel shy to talk to him. But i am glad that i confessed.
And yes this taught me that no matter who it is what age it is . Never feel shy to express, no matter what the reaction is, because later in life you should not regret .
Sometimes unspoken words are the reason why people fail at love. Take a chance. Take a risk. Tell them how you feel.
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